Addisons makes me feel like there is a growing weight on my body. Each year further from the boundless, untamed passion and energy of my youth. Tired without being weary. Too often cloudy. Unable to push into the depth of night rather than make the hard choices about what ideas and causes to chase down. But yet happy, having shaved down many elements of my life and work to the richest activities. If I could just forsake the anxiety of what I cannot do or care about, I would be happy and at peace.